National Trial Competition

I'm about a month into school and it's been extremely buisy! I really feel like they were really easy on us the first semester- compared to now.

This weekend alone we have a 10+ page memo due and must play the role of a witness in the Regional National Trial Competition. I always used to love to perform and act as I was in Forensics and Drama Competitions in High School and consistently placed well. But, preparing for this.. I'm more nervous and panicky than ever. It's not that much to prepare for as I just have to be familiar with a deposition or 2, but this preparation has caused me to feel just as anxious as if I was giving a deposition for my own legal case.

On that note: It's brought back a lot of memories, and maybe that's why I'm so nervous. In a meeting about the Competition, we were told that upon cross examination, some comptetitors might come across as 'attacking' and you might feel as if their personally attacking you- and told us not to take it that way. That's easier said than done for a person with a TBI who doesn't have the most stable mental state to begin with and always seems to take things as a personal attack. I think I'm more nervous than ever that I'm going to flip out and make a fool of myself in the court room as well as forget things as my memory isn't that good either.

I guess I should chill out for a bit, do some relaxation strategies- and then head on down to the courthouse and hope for the best! Let's hope I can keep my emotions under control!